Essense of Being Alive

At arround 4.20 pm ,office TECHYOG, I was sitting quietly , watching those Five students learning and Practicing on there respective Computer. Ranjit, my bhanja(in Odia) was sitting and reading the local newspaper and suddenly I got some pain an uneasy feeling, I stand up quietly and make a move towards the other room quietly, the Pain is on the left portion of the chest and it was so intense that I was unable to breathe for 1-2 minutes, fell down on the floor and wanted to Shout but unable to do that. I was nervous for the first time and may be I was in a fear of loosing myself. The Situation I was unable to describe as this is the first of its kind. I was still no aware of the condition. I am aware of the Problems like this in the Patients with Gastric and Heart Attacks. But this is some thing a mixture of both. With the struggle continues I forcibly breathed and breathed until I got at last a deep breath, with the pain continuing and than had a glass of cold water nearby from the water filter. This Process somewhat relaxed the heart pain and than I had one more glass of water and continue breathing slowly. Slowly I got some relief and the moment I realized the essence of being alive, just a glimpse of loosing the life, being close to life without life.

Just after that I feel to call Jitu and than Gopal to chat on something, just to talk more.

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